fight or flight

panic!

not to be dramatic, but i am definitely feeling a fight or flight response for my accounting final that i have to take today. i'm scared like it was a killer after me or something. not gonna lie. i'm definitely sick to my stomach. it's not a good look at all.

plus i just have to get past accounting! reading it makes me want to jump out my (albeit 1st floor) window. i'm irrationally afraid of this test. every time i've mentioned to people that were in my class last semester that i have to take it i get these horrified expressions like they're experiencing a terrible memory from their pasts that they'd tried to forget.

and yes, i've taken it as well. the whole course and the final and then the course again. but i really don't feel this is putting me at any kind of advantage, sadly. it's like i'm allergic to accounting, or insusceptible to it at least. my body is rejecting it even on a biological level. that can't be right.

i just want to make myself real small and hide until it's safe to come out again.

.:listening to: tori amos - bouncing off clouds:.