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to quote ali, this week is "crazo." in every possible way, actually. so much so that i am delirious at this point.

this week i have 5 exams and 3 papers, and if that weren't enough, i am supposed to be registering for classes and meeting with my adviser about my internship.

i'm really worried about my accounting final tomorrow, because if i don't make a c in the class, i can't take any of the rest of the classes i need to graduate in the summer or the fall. so basically i'd have a whole semester of wasted time and wouldn't graduate until spring at the earliest. i'm really hoping that does not turn out to be the case, but it's a lot of pressure to be under. especially with so many other things going on.

i wish i weren't such a worrier though. it's just that not graduating in december is such a horrible consequence to possibly face. yes ultimately life would still go on, but it would not be nice.

money is slowly escaping me as well, and i will really need a job soon. there are some very cool internships available, and most of them are paid, but in the next few weeks i will have to put my resume and cover letters together and go on at least a few interviews to be in the running for the jobs. once again, just a lot of pressure. i'm excited about the opportunities, but just worried i do not have the qualifications or appealing gpa's to make it. i did meet with a nice lady in the career center and she gave me some great pointers on putting my resume together and some information that i think i can use.

i need to figure out how this summer is going to work out as well. i will have to get more financial aid if that's possible to cover it. and make sure i can stay on campus. i'd love to do my internship over the summer in addition to mgmt 480, but we'll have to see how these interviews go. i'd love to do a good job at whichever one i get, because it might be really helpful in terms of job contacts after school. and that'd be really nice, because all my recent jobs are going to be more detriments than help, which is a sad day.

i guess just please wish me luck or anything you can do. i need as much help as i can get. thanks.

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